| i guess this is the end of the world. the end of it all. the end of my life? no! ya kno why?! ....b/c i won't let shit break me down. well at least i'll try not to.
*despite what u think of me i am not a bad person. i have reasons for doing what i do, as do u. i just couldn't continue trying to breathe underwater. undertand or not. i don't care cuz barely any1 does. there's no such things as friends...there are people that u care about and some that care about u. some ppl fake the caring...some ppl mean it for a while. it all ends in a serious massive disaster sooner or later. friendship and love....lies. maybe i never believed....maybe i never will. soon i'll be outta here. 21 weeks and counting.* |
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| some ppl just read so much into stuff. don't u agree? ugh. bitches. |
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| i had a terrible nite last nite. didn't sleep cuz i was so stressed. i prolly shoulda stayed home and take a nice hot bath.....as a matter of fact i'm gonna go do that now. lol. some1 just said someting to me just now and it was so funny cuz they think it's tru but it's not. ha. w00t w00t. so long suckas! |
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| *crying* my life is a complete mess. i never imagined that it would turn out to be this way. i mean it's not over yet but i feel like it is...like i have no where to turn. i have nothing that i can do to fix this b/c my life isn't like "the butterfly effect". i can't go back and fix shit....erase certain ppl out of my life....make certain ppl closer to me. I CAN'T DO THAT SO I DON'T KNO Y THE HELL I CAN'T STOP CRYING. nothing ever works out rite does it? NOTHIG. this is ridiculous. what the hell is the point of living?! i don't understand it. omg....i'm really going crzy. i can't stop crying. *sigh* i'm gonna do wash the dog. |
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| ugh. why can't i just drop down dead already? i mean i'm sure i'm just wasting air. liars, cheats, rapists, me....ppl lyk that just shouldn't be living. i really should do someting about this person (me) wasting space and perfectly good air. every1 raise ur hand if u'd be bothered by that. /looks around. /shrugs. no1 raised their hand. ...not even the little ppl in my mind. oh well i mite just stick around b/c i don't want to c julie or amy or april or ne of them. |
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